When I went through Pathways Core Training I created a life plan. My life plan isn’t that “great” and am still working on developing it because at the time I did it, I really couldn’t see myself as a single person or as a married person – or even really as alive. I felt so dead inside and really believe that because of Pathways my life will be different, forever. I am connected more to God than ever. One of the things that I did put in my life plan was to do a writing retreat once a quarter. In fact, the quarterly writing retreat is really the only part of my life plan that I have been super successful at.
I have done a few other things on my life plan. I found a church home. I completed my Associate’s degree. But there is something different about my writing retreats. I think it is because I am having to choose to take time to do something important for me. Something different for me. Being alone was something I never liked before. I avoided it at all costs. So – the writing retreats are a big deal for me.
During my transition over the last 60 days, I have had to cut my expenses as much as possible. I have come to realize that taking a “formal” writing retreat is not likely. I will not have the money to go away some place for a few days. I had been praying about how I can still get that time to connect with God, create content and just be me during this season of my life.
On Mother’s day – I slept, almost the entire day. I had just moved to my sisters and had been busy getting settled. I had also driven to Prairie View to pick up my son from college and I was just tired.
I really did plan on going to church. But didn’t. I did, however, watch a church sermon online from the Village, with Matt Chandler. The one I choose was “work and rest” because I knew that I was going to need to find a balance of how to do this owning a business thing again without getting burned out.
What I didn’t expect was to get an answer to my retreat issue.
This sermon spoke to me in many ways – but when Pastor Matt talked about his “one day” – I knew it was what I could do for my own writing retreats.
I dont have to go away. I dont have to go away for 3 days each time to be able to pause and connect with God.
I can connect with God in any moment I choose to.
My plan right now is to schedule one day a month where I disconnect from social media and have no other appointments/events planned and just be. Be with God. Be with myself. Create content (if that’s what my heart needs to do). Take a nap (that’s always a good thing for me).
Realizing that I can still honor my life plan by doing my retreats, only in a different way was good “medicine” for me. This is just a season for me and I will go back to taking a more structured time away in the future, or maybe I will keep doing my “retreat day” and add in a full retreat getaway when I can.
My heart is happy that I am going to find moments in my everyday life to remain connected to God in a way that matters.
Maybe you can watch the above sermon and see how God guides you.
Much love to all.